Dum Dee Dum... I am not a super hero neither am i spiderman. I am going to save the world... like as if you would believe. I am a maniac. I came from an outer space which is filled with water. I learn swimming at the age of zero.I wail like a cry baby. I crawl like spiderman, i fly like superman, i drive like batman. I live in wonderland. Rugrats is my friend, so is peter pan.
so on Sunday, i planned to take Shafiqah out for a breakfast at 8am.. but yes-u-know-me thgie makes me woke up at 12.. i know that she's tired of Saturday too..we went to One Utama the whole day.. watch movies..eat around..redbull-around.. :P
so i decided to go out in the evening after she finishes her theater practise.. pick her up and YEAY its her treat todayy~! she's the only one who know what i loved. Arabiannn Fooooooooood~
seems that Arabian blood run thru my veins.. i just cant help myself with all those Koobideh Kabab and stuff's~ We went to Ariana for a middle-class Arabian Food..LOL The best Arabian stuff i have is in KLCC top floor..forgt whats the name but its damn nice~ This one pun quite ok lah..To those who never had an Arabian food.please know that its not good to have it regularly.. because..its expensive.LOL lucky she's paying :P
While i was having my meal..Shafiqah startd to get naughty again.. Lately she loved to play with my ears..looking for white n black heads.LOL im so lucky to have such a princess.cant imagne how? take a look over here !!
Then we spent a beautiful nite together beside the lake.. she talks all the way and im happy to see that :) i really love when its just us two sayang..
:) thank you sayang for the expensive meals.. for talking so much that gives me headache til now :P for loving me,only me,forever. I love you baby.
xx signed off at 9:03 AM
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Dear God.
Dear God,
I know im just a little dot in this world but please hear me. I know im so far away from you but please listen to my voice. I know i take more than give but please consider what im asking. and I know im never be thankful with what you gave me but please..
You used to give me a heart which never know the meaning of love. Never feel bad to crush others..let others cried..let others hearts died. But somehow..
The women uve sent to me replaced my plastic heart with a real one..
She gave me all the things ive been looking for.. She let me feel the meaning of love.. which i thought ive understand before..which i was wrong..
Weve been through everything together for a really long and lovely time.. it seems so beautiful at the beginning..
but now..
things started to get so dark..tears and hearts starts to get broken.. situation starts to take place.. words and promises ended in seconds.. things changing.. hearts broken..
Where is the plastic heart i owned last time? Which never know the meaning of love,care,and attention? Which never need to be taken care and never be broken?
Dear god,
The only thing i ask is please.. Give her strength to go through all this.. Give her your love n care so that she can be happy again..
Im not perfect enough to give her everything she ever dreamd off. Im not good enough to accept all the things that she wanted to..the situation..the people.. Im just not..enough!
Although plastic hearts never know the feelings of jealousy,insecurity,love.. I dont want it back to get out from here..
With all this imperfection..im on my knees to ask you... Please let her heart be with me til the last breath i cud take.. Please let her be in my arms til the last picture i can see.. Please let herself be mine til the end.
I love you Shafiqah binti Shafie, i know this is such an embarassment. But i just want the whole world to know how much u mean to me. U bring the missing pieces ive been looking for the rest of my life.. U bring the lights that have been missing a long time ago.. and u are the only one i need for me to live again..
I miss you. I need you. and I love you baby.
Im sorry. -dear.
xx signed off at 7:17 AM
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Diary of 13 May 2017
Open my eyes one morning..turn my head and saw..Shafiqah, which is already a wife of mine. Kiss her in the eyes and says "I Love You Sayang". Shower, and get downstairs to help her set up the table for breakfast. No words can explain how wonderful life is to see our children cycling around the garden, happy..
Mama shouted "Breakfast Readyy!" and they went inside chasing a morning huggs n kissses from their mama n papa. Table is getting messier every minutes when the children starts to have a food war. Mama is mad and ask em to stop. How cute she is when she's mad..
After a nice breakfast from a lovely wife, gotta do my job. Went into my office room and do what i have to do for the day. Suddenly she came inside and give me a kiss before going for work. The same thing I said to her everyday.."Take care sayang..anythg just call me ok?I love you.."
I can hear those two kids downstair fighting over toys. It distracts me from my work. But i will never be mad, cuz i know that when they started schooling. I will be alone in this house. Let them be. Its noon now, its time for me to cook for lunch. Although its not as good as Mama's cooking. The children still love it! Were having lunch on the sofa while watching movies, Mama is not around so its okay..
Since a movie took too long to finish..both of them slept on the sofa with their plates. Gotta clean that mess before Shafiqah went back home. Continue on my work upstairs after receivg a call from a lovely wife.She's doin fine.
The day is about to end..Mama is home! The kids pick up their bikes and ask Mama to join us for a cycle at the park..But Mama is too tired and she had to prepare dinner..Luckily i did the laundry for her just now..We went for a cycle..Just 3 of us..How proud I am to cycle with them both cuties at the park..as their papa!
Went back home with a sweaty shirt, saw Shafiqah is preparing dinner in the wet kitchen..I know she's tired..and i know how to cheer her up..Slowly i hug her from behind and give her a kiss.."I Love You Sayang.." i tried to help but..."sayang busuklaa..pergi mandi dluu!"
We have our dinner and watch TV together...from one sitcom..to a drama..the kids looks sleepy..n Mama asked em to go to bed..We kiss them both goodnight..Now its only the two of us..When i was a teenager..the couch is the worst place to sleep on..but not now..its the sexiest place on earth to be wth her.."goodnite sayang..I Love You.."
You know which is the happiest family on earth?The 2nd wud be the Simpson's..and of coz the first wud be mine..This is the perfect life i always wanted with you sayang..only you.
Iylia, 13-05-2017.
xx signed off at 11:44 PM
Sunday, April 26, 2009
weird.
weird?yes thts the word for today.. n somehow i feel like writing in malay for now..
aku keluar bersama shafiqah di waktu tgah hari.. hari ini adalah hari jadi Farhan..sepupu belah ibuku.. tetapi atuk dan nenek tidak mnyertainya...kenapa? oh rupanya atuk sakit..dia semput..tapi aku kluar juga..
setibanya aku di stesen lrt..terlihat gadis kesayanganku menunggu di situ.. wajah penat terpancar di mukanya..aku tahu dia tentu penat berlatih.. kami terus berangkat ke pavilion untuk menonton filem yg aku tggu2.. Coming Soon..filem hantu Thai.. aku xtahu kenapa sejak pertama kali aku melihat iklannya.. filem itu seperti memanggil2 aku untuk menontonnya.. adakah kerana aku berdarah thai? tidakk.tentunya banyak lagi filem thai yang aku tak berminat pun menontonnya.
aku ke sg wang dahulu untuk makan bersamanya.. tentunya teppanyaki menjadi pilihan kami.. tetapi aku tak mngerti kenapa teppanyaki pada malam ini tidak sesedap yg biasa.. pelik bukan?mungkin aku sudah muak.tidakk. aku masih gian untuk makannya di waktu hadapan. dan diwaktu perjalanan ke pavilion.. aku terserempak dgan apai..sepupu belah ayahku.. yang aku tidak pernah tegur slama ni.. knapa harus dia yang aku jumpa?hairan..
filem bermula,disinlah dimana insiden2 pelik mula berlaku.. aku tidak tahu kenapa terlalu bnyak scene didalam filem ini yang familiar.. sepanjang ianya dimainkan..aku terdiam.. bukan kerana takut tetapi hairan..ianya sperti memainkan kembali.. gambaran2 yg slalu aku bayangkan..sejak kecil lagi.. hairan..aku slalu membayangkan hantu seperti chaba.. hantu yg mandi di kamar orang..rumah usang yg amat besar.. hairan bukan?
kami pulang ke rumah...dan yg lebih hairan.. atuk tidak ada di sofa..tetapi inhalernya masih disitu.. skrg aku cuma berharap atuk baik2 sahaja dan skrg aku cuba mghabiskan kerja2 buat besok..
dan..tiba2 smagatku untuk mengejar cita2 sbgai seorang direktor filem membara.. mgapa?adakah kerana filem tadi?entahlah.. walau apa pun..terima kasih sayang kerana sering berada disampingku..
xx signed off at 10:41 AM
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Are you Malay enough?
I came out with an idea for my new post.. n this is it! "Are u Malay enough?" im not being racist or what but this is just my view upons Malays. So lets go!
1-You go out and fight for your beloved politicians! Doesnt matter if its on a working day! Go and fight! If ur boss try to stop you! Punch him in the face cuz he's one of the other parties..Let there be blood as long as your favorite leader wins the election! U will handle a politic talk at mamak everyday while the politicians is at home playing PS3 with their childrens.
2-Headlines like "Artis berlaga pipi", "Artis berpegangan tangan di kompleks beli belah" would be your favorite page to read! Bash on every celebrities! Ask em "dont u knw that god hates it??"! Suddenly ur being soo muslimin when they did that, although u still kept Majalah Mangga as a reference for masturbation.
3-U sigh everytime u watch youth enjoying hardcore music and stuff. U said that rock songs, black tshirts, freaky hairstyle belongs to the devil. Its Black Metal! Banned em! Although u still went to dangdut and watch cheap loose asses shaking.
its getting fun now.. anymore suggestions?
i made this cool poster for yah!
xx signed off at 4:45 AM
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Goood Day!
woke up at 12 and went out with my babygirl for a movie.. first we planned for a Malay movie "jangan tegur".. but she's afraid of ghost so..nahh... we went for our lunch first..she and i were craving for Chinese Muslim's Nasi Goreng Fatimah! damnn its gooooood~!
we went for The Fast n Furious 4..n know what man?? theyve totally changed man!from a suckie2 posers racing movie to a really goddamn good movie!
what made me horny is when they actually put most of my favourite ride in that movie.. first of coz the GTR34 skyline..Cobalt SS muscle car..and the Ford GT Mustang! this movie involves a lot of superchargers..so ready to be kepishhh~!
and the best part for today is... KARAOKE!!!!!!!!! we bookd for 2 hours and sing like there's no tmrow!
i had never sing jiwang songs like Awie's,Amy Search's and Faizal Tahir's in front of anyone.. n she made me! somehow i feel that i can only sings stuff like backstreet boys and blue.haha
then we went back home..ehhhh stop! we went for a juice in a deserted island of cyberjaya before goin back home..
carrot juice and honey dewwwww..yummy! anddd..someone already own this..
lucky her!she's the only one to have it!huhuhuhuh well thats the only cd that have all 3 of my best singles.. which 2 of em is meant for her.. n i nver intend to release it for the time being... ok enuff of that cuz i just cant wait to get back home and watch my babygirl on tv!!
thats her in black!OMG u dnt knw how it feels to see your girlfriend on tv! hauahuahauahua make sure u guys tune in to Embun Mutiara every Friday and Saturday at 9pm!
and and i was there for this scene!hahah limkokwing again... LAME>>>>>> local directors need to find a cooler place than LUCT lahh.. like sekolah agama maktab ke..hahaha! talking bout limkokwing... i never startd on any of my works yet... adehhhh~
xx signed off at 9:44 AM
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Should i?
well lately i have this one issue that kept on messing with my mind.. somehow i feel like to continue my mission for a dreadlock that i kept since 6 years ago.. dreadlocks is a crown that maybe can make me feel good everytime and maybe can be a mess.
i startd to love dreadlocks when the first time i met with Aru from the band KoffinKanser when i was in form 3..at that moment,i always keep in my mind to have locks once ive finishd schooling.
Aru of KoffinKanser,now in Republic Of Brickfields.
Headacheeee!!! should i do it?? the hardest part came when i knw that hair extension is "haram".. ive a short hair and i dnt wanna end up like some nigga with short dread tht looks like a strawberry! when i saw these great people with dreads..dread's spirit startd to arouse me..
Jonathan Davis of Korn
Jason Castro from American Idol
No need to mention Bob Marley and some other big names.LOL but somehow.. some of the stars did stop my intention to pull a dreadlock.. DAMN!
Bill Kaulitz silky hair
Depp's sexy hair..
or maybe my previous hairstyle of..
Ville Valo sensual hair..
SHOULD I DREAD OR NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!