The World According to..

Thank You sayang.

2009-05-11T09:03:00.000-07:00

so on Sunday, i planned to take Shafiqah out for a breakfast at 8am..
but yes-u-know-me thgie makes me woke up at 12..
i know that she's tired of Saturday too..we went to One Utama the whole day..
watch movies..eat around..redbull-around.. :P

so i decided to go out in the evening after she finishes her theater practise..
pick her up and YEAY its her treat todayy~!
she's the only one who know what i loved.
Arabiannn Fooooooooood~

seems that Arabian blood run thru my veins..
i just cant help myself with all those Koobideh Kabab and stuff's~
We went to Ariana for a middle-class Arabian Food..LOL
The best Arabian stuff i have is in KLCC top floor..forgt whats the name but its damn nice~
This one pun quite ok lah..To those who never had an Arabian food.please know that its not good to have it regularly..
because..its expensive.LOL lucky she's paying :P

While i was having my meal..Shafiqah startd to get naughty again..
Lately she loved to play with my ears..looking for white n black heads.LOL
im so lucky to have such a princess.cant imagne how?
take a look over here !!

Then we spent a beautiful nite together beside the lake..
she talks all the way and im happy to see that :)
i really love when its just us two sayang..

:)
thank you sayang for the expensive meals..
for talking so much that gives me headache til now :P
for loving me,only me,forever. I love you baby.

Dear God.

2009-05-05T07:17:00.000-07:00

Dear God,

I know im just a little dot in this world but please hear me.
I know im so far away from you but please listen to my voice.
I know i take more than give but please consider what im asking.
and I know im never be thankful with what you gave me but please..

You used to give me a heart which never know the meaning of love.
Never feel bad to crush others..let others cried..let others hearts died.
But somehow..

The women uve sent to me replaced my plastic heart with a real one..

She gave me all the things ive been looking for..
She let me feel the meaning of love..
which i thought ive understand before..which i was wrong..

Weve been through everything together for a really long and lovely time..
it seems so beautiful at the beginning..

but now..

things started to get so dark..tears and hearts starts to get broken..
situation starts to take place..
words and promises ended in seconds..
things changing..
hearts broken..

Where is the plastic heart i owned last time?
Which never know the meaning of love,care,and attention?
Which never need to be taken care and never be broken?

Dear god,

The only thing i ask is please..
Give her strength to go through all this..
Give her your love n care so that she can be happy again..

Im not perfect enough to give her everything she ever dreamd off.
Im not good enough to accept all the things that she wanted to..the situation..the people..
Im just not..enough!

Although plastic hearts never know the feelings of jealousy,insecurity,love..
I dont want it back to get out from here..

With all this imperfection..im on my knees to ask you...
Please let her heart be with me til the last breath i cud take..
Please let her be in my arms til the last picture i can see..
Please let herself be mine til the end.

I love you Shafiqah binti Shafie,
i know this is such an embarassment.
But i just want the whole world to know how much u mean to me.
U bring the missing pieces ive been looking for the rest of my life..
U bring the lights that have been missing a long time ago..
and u are the only one i need for me to live again..

I miss you.
I need you.
and I love you baby.

Im sorry.
-dear.

Diary of 13 May 2017

2009-05-02T23:44:00.000-07:00

Open my eyes one morning..turn my head and saw..Shafiqah, which is already a wife of mine. Kiss her in the eyes and says "I Love You Sayang". Shower, and get downstairs to help her set up the table for breakfast. No words can explain how wonderful life is to see our children cycling around the garden, happy..

Mama shouted "Breakfast Readyy!" and they went inside chasing a morning huggs n kissses from their mama n papa. Table is getting messier every minutes when the children starts to have a food war. Mama is mad and ask em to stop. How cute she is when she's mad..

After a nice breakfast from a lovely wife, gotta do my job. Went into my office room and do what i have to do for the day. Suddenly she came inside and give me a kiss before going for work. The same thing I said to her everyday.."Take care sayang..anythg just call me ok?I love you.."

I can hear those two kids downstair fighting over toys. It distracts me from my work. But i will never be mad, cuz i know that when they started schooling. I will be alone in this house. Let them be. Its noon now, its time for me to cook for lunch. Although its not as good as Mama's cooking. The children still love it! Were having lunch on the sofa while watching movies, Mama is not around so its okay..

Since a movie took too long to finish..both of them slept on the sofa with their plates. Gotta clean that mess before Shafiqah went back home. Continue on my work upstairs after receivg a call from a lovely wife.She's doin fine.

The day is about to end..Mama is home! The kids pick up their bikes and ask Mama to join us for a cycle at the park..But Mama is too tired and she had to prepare dinner..Luckily i did the laundry for her just now..We went for a cycle..Just 3 of us..How proud I am to cycle with them both cuties at the park..as their papa!

Went back home with a sweaty shirt, saw Shafiqah is preparing dinner in the wet kitchen..I know she's tired..and i know how to cheer her up..Slowly i hug her from behind and give her a kiss.."I Love You Sayang.." i tried to help but..."sayang busuklaa..pergi mandi dluu!"

We have our dinner and watch TV together...from one sitcom..to a drama..the kids looks sleepy..n Mama asked em to go to bed..We kiss them both goodnight..Now its only the two of us..When i was a teenager..the couch is the worst place to sleep on..but not now..its the sexiest place on earth to be wth her.."goodnite sayang..I Love You.."

You know which is the happiest family on earth?The 2nd wud be the Simpson's..and of coz the first wud be mine..This is the perfect life i always wanted with you sayang..only you.

Iylia,
13-05-2017.

weird.

2009-04-26T10:41:00.000-07:00

weird?yes thts the word for today..
n somehow i feel like writing in malay for now..

aku keluar bersama shafiqah di waktu tgah hari..
hari ini adalah hari jadi Farhan..sepupu belah ibuku..
tetapi atuk dan nenek tidak mnyertainya...kenapa?
oh rupanya atuk sakit..dia semput..tapi aku kluar juga..

setibanya aku di stesen lrt..terlihat gadis kesayanganku menunggu di situ..
wajah penat terpancar di mukanya..aku tahu dia tentu penat berlatih..
kami terus berangkat ke pavilion untuk menonton filem yg aku tggu2..
Coming Soon..filem hantu Thai..
aku xtahu kenapa sejak pertama kali aku melihat iklannya..
filem itu seperti memanggil2 aku untuk menontonnya..
adakah kerana aku berdarah thai?
tidakk.tentunya banyak lagi filem thai yang aku tak berminat pun menontonnya.

aku ke sg wang dahulu untuk makan bersamanya..
tentunya teppanyaki menjadi pilihan kami..
tetapi aku tak mngerti kenapa teppanyaki pada malam ini tidak sesedap yg biasa..
pelik bukan?mungkin aku sudah muak.tidakk.
aku masih gian untuk makannya di waktu hadapan.
dan diwaktu perjalanan ke pavilion..
aku terserempak dgan apai..sepupu belah ayahku..
yang aku tidak pernah tegur slama ni..
knapa harus dia yang aku jumpa?hairan..

filem bermula,disinlah dimana insiden2 pelik mula berlaku..
aku tidak tahu kenapa terlalu bnyak scene didalam filem ini yang familiar..
sepanjang ianya dimainkan..aku terdiam..
bukan kerana takut tetapi hairan..ianya sperti memainkan kembali..
gambaran2 yg slalu aku bayangkan..sejak kecil lagi..
hairan..aku slalu membayangkan hantu seperti chaba..
hantu yg mandi di kamar orang..rumah usang yg amat besar..
hairan bukan?

kami pulang ke rumah...dan yg lebih hairan..
atuk tidak ada di sofa..tetapi inhalernya masih disitu..
skrg aku cuma berharap atuk baik2 sahaja dan skrg aku cuba mghabiskan kerja2 buat besok..

dan..tiba2 smagatku untuk mengejar cita2 sbgai seorang direktor filem membara..
mgapa?adakah kerana filem tadi?entahlah..
walau apa pun..terima kasih sayang kerana sering berada disampingku..

Are you Malay enough?

2009-04-25T04:45:00.000-07:00

I came out with an idea for my new post..
n this is it! "Are u Malay enough?"
im not being racist or what but this is just my view upons Malays.
So lets go!

1-You go out and fight for your beloved politicians! Doesnt matter if its on a working day! Go and fight! If ur boss try to stop you! Punch him in the face cuz he's one of the other parties..Let there be blood as long as your favorite leader wins the election! U will handle a politic talk at mamak everyday while the politicians is at home playing PS3 with their childrens.

2-Headlines like "Artis berlaga pipi", "Artis berpegangan tangan di kompleks beli belah" would be your favorite page to read! Bash on every celebrities! Ask em "dont u knw that god hates it??"! Suddenly ur being soo muslimin when they did that, although u still kept Majalah Mangga as a reference for masturbation.

3-U sigh everytime u watch youth enjoying hardcore music and stuff. U said that rock songs, black tshirts, freaky hairstyle belongs to the devil. Its Black Metal! Banned em! Although u still went to dangdut and watch cheap loose asses shaking.

its getting fun now..
anymore suggestions?

i made this cool poster for yah!

Goood Day!

2009-04-18T09:44:00.000-07:00

woke up at 12 and went out with my babygirl for a movie..
first we planned for a Malay movie "jangan tegur"..
but she's afraid of ghost so..nahh...
we went for our lunch first..she and i were craving for Chinese Muslim's Nasi Goreng Fatimah!
damnn its gooooood~!

we went for The Fast n Furious 4..n know what man??
theyve totally changed man!from a suckie2 posers racing movie to a really goddamn good movie!

what made me horny is when they actually put most of my favourite ride in that movie..
first of coz the GTR34 skyline..Cobalt SS muscle car..and the Ford GT Mustang!
this movie involves a lot of superchargers..so ready to be kepishhh~!

and the best part for today is...
KARAOKE!!!!!!!!!
we bookd for 2 hours and sing like there's no tmrow!

i had never sing jiwang songs like Awie's,Amy Search's and Faizal Tahir's in front of anyone..
n she made me!
somehow i feel that i can only sings stuff like backstreet boys and blue.haha

then we went back home..ehhhh stop!
we went for a juice in a deserted island of cyberjaya before goin back home..

carrot juice and honey dewwwww..yummy!
anddd..someone already own this..

lucky her!she's the only one to have it!huhuhuhuh
well thats the only cd that have all 3 of my best singles..
which 2 of em is meant for her..
n i nver intend to release it for the time being...
ok enuff of that cuz i just cant wait to get back home and watch my babygirl on tv!!

thats her in black!OMG u dnt knw how it feels to see your girlfriend on tv!
hauahuahauahua make sure u guys tune in to Embun Mutiara every Friday and Saturday at 9pm!

and and i was there for this scene!hahah limkokwing again...
LAME>>>>>>
local directors need to find a cooler place than LUCT lahh..
like sekolah agama maktab ke..hahaha!
talking bout limkokwing...
i never startd on any of my works yet...
adehhhh~

Should i?

2009-04-16T02:40:00.000-07:00

well lately i have this one issue that kept on messing with my mind..
somehow i feel like to continue my mission for a dreadlock that i kept since 6 years ago..
dreadlocks is a crown that maybe can make me feel good everytime and maybe can be a mess.

i startd to love dreadlocks when the first time i met with Aru from the band KoffinKanser when i was in form 3..at that moment,i always keep in my mind to have locks once ive finishd schooling.

Aru of KoffinKanser,now in Republic Of Brickfields.

Headacheeee!!!
should i do it??
the hardest part came when i knw that hair extension is "haram"..
ive a short hair and i dnt wanna end up like some nigga with short dread tht looks like a strawberry!
when i saw these great people with dreads..dread's spirit startd to arouse me..

Jonathan Davis of Korn

Jason Castro from American Idol

No need to mention Bob Marley and some other big names.LOL
but somehow..
some of the stars did stop my intention to pull a dreadlock..
DAMN!

Bill Kaulitz silky hair

Depp's sexy hair..

or maybe my previous hairstyle of..

Ville Valo sensual hair..

SHOULD I DREAD OR NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

UncleBobCafe,Kuala Lumpur.

2009-04-12T21:12:00.000-07:00

hahha due to some problems..
i decided to play solo tonite n let my sessionists rest..
n somehow im scared tho..this is the first solo performance ive ever did..
reach there at 8.30 n its raining heavily..went into the artist room and
i met the band Somewhere Above Us and the drummer of the band Fingers..

time went through with a plate of nasi ayam and a puff of shisha (too bad i cant join) other band came one by one..Aura..SevenSeas..Sharpshooter..Fingers..Rollicks..

theyre're about 10bands performg that nite..n 5 is invited bands..n im one of em!huhuhu its happy to see my name in the poster all around the buildg along with big bands like Sharpshooter and Rollicks!

n in a middle of nowhere Dj Kay shouted my name..Iyliaa!!!Standby!!and i was like damn!im next??!!

i waited backstage and listen to what the Dj's were crapping about..they're the funniest ever! "ok selepas ini..kita ada seorang artis jemputan khas untuk malam ini..beri tepukan gila2 kpada Almost Iylia!!!!" and people were clapping like hell man..i never expect that to happen..the dj's were asking bout my album and stuff which i dnt even have and its funny!hahah

so for the opening i covered the song Demi Waktu by Ungu..wthout telling whats the title..and shockingly people love it and some did sang together!followed by 3 of my songs..This is Why..Til the End..and my new single Akan Ku Tunggu..damn its a really sweaty show..im nervous like hell..luckily it all went goooood~!

I'll upload the videos once i cud!

od nangis dan dinner.

2009-04-09T05:48:00.000-07:00

9th April.
Went to classes at 1pm without nothing to show..
So just confront Mr Azhari and admit that i dnt have anytg to show..
But he's cool with it and show some of his work back then in college..
HAHA u guys shud watch the vid he acted in.."A Teh Tarik Story" reveals the true him..
Long hair and looking homeless!haha sorry sir.

But then something happen..

Do u recognize this girl??
YES this is a friend of mine,Od.and know what happen to her?
Allright it goes like this..Mr San Meng Keong is not happy with her work..
her researches and stuffs..and i dnt know why i started to hear someone sobbing..

STOP!

Before we come to that..i want all of u to know..that since i know this girl..she never feel sad,never have been so serious and never ever cried..but today..

SHE'S CRYING!Oh my gosh!its so sad to see her crying...
well..i hope she gets better now..
be strong girl!

and today..
i was supposed to be Shafiqah's date for Merong Mahawangsa Theather Dinner..
and i bought this shirt/vest or wtv u call it to make sure that i'll look good tonight and dont end up looking like a ragdoll or scumbags..

but..i was told that i cant follow since the productions limit the number of their guests..so,people like me who makes no use to them and shudnt be there is not invited...too bad that i cant watch my girlfriend performances.. :( she sent me a picture of her in the costume..n she looks really good in it..

here we go..Princess Ling Ling..

isnt she just beautiful?
ohh i love you baby.
and ive finished writing my new single called "Akan Ku Tunggu"
might be playing it on this saturday night show :)

A day without soul.

2009-04-08T16:14:00.000-07:00

Wednesday 8th April

2days to go for another show and what scares me is big bands that will be playing with me..*SWT
woke up at 10 n pickd up my sessionist in Cheras but bfore that we went to a guitar store to get some inspiration..LOL nahh im changing my strings thts all.

Yes its PINK cuz its Shafiqah's favorite color! For the 2nd time im using an electric guitar strings on an acoustic..but this is the 1st time for a show..im scared somehow!huhu Well its an Ernie Ball Super Slinky!

We then hit the studio(which basically is just my bedroom)LOL. Its quite boring cuz were playing the songs that weve played for hundred of times before..so we decided just to pick any random songs..n songs that weve made for that day is..

1-This is why - Almost Iylia
2-Til the end - Almost Iylia
3-Sekali Lagi - Almost Iylia
4-Heartache Every Moment - HIM
5-Demi Waktu - Ungu
6-Damien Rice - Rootless Tree
7-Mariah Carey - Always Be My Baby

LOL LOL and LOL.
i dnt even know why am i writing the songs list..
told u..its a boring day!But..
the best thing that made me happy today is to read an article bout my girlfriend..
no one can tell how proud i am now!

"selain itu, seorang artis baru dari Metrowealth Sdn Bhd , Nurul Shafiqah Shafie juga terlibat dalam menjayakan pementasan ini nanti"

ohh and thats my baby!

Good and Bad days..Tribute to Goku.

2009-04-06T23:12:00.000-07:00

Saturday 4th april

Well i managed to finish my clients food menu on time!
thts good!n im glad that they love it!

then i went to see Shafiqah doing her shooting in my own place of study..
limkokwing cyberjaya..went there and there's nothg that i can do except watch..
it gets quite boring so i print out some books from the library and read while watching her..
and i dnt really like to act like we both doesnt have anythg between in front of them..(its in the contract) n i think Malaysian shud grow.

it started raining so i just wait and read in the car..its 7.30pm and i heard my special ringtone which have shafiqah video in it playing..i was asleep!starts my engine and pick her up..she looks quite scared..so i askd why?n she told me that there's one fucktard nigga messing wth her..just wait black ass imma stick my dick in ur head.

then we off to Padi house and have our dinner..i just have a carrot juice while Shafiqah took my chicken chop rice. and she said she's not hungry :P suchh a big eater arent u baby?LOL

Sunday 5th April

Baby is going to KRU production house today so I guess its a good chance to meet her again..so its KLCC babeyh!Never went there for a long2 time ago..she asked me to take a train but it was raining and im fucking fed up with waiting..so i just drove to KLCC..i arrived earlier than her i guess hhaha but i took some time to buy tickets for Confessions of a Shopaholics that she's craving for a long time ago.

Got my tickets and went to Kinokuniya to give her a suprise..but LOL she's still not there..to kill some time..i read all of the back cover of Tony Buzan's.Quite a nice book.and kring kring she's here..acting like a stranger i read a book beside her..haha

We then have our dinner bfore the movie..its a bbq wantan mee..she loves it so much! n somehow the noodles keeps getting worst day by day..to kill time again...we look at BMW M3 showcase downstairs..its a damn luxury monster man!i will have it one fine day!and its time for MOVIE!!

Its a nice movie though i hate stories that doesnt involve killing and blood..LOL tht sounds scary..but what makes it nicer is she's really happy to get the chance of watching it with me :)
those who're shopaholics shud watch this. n ive been thingking to get her a green scarf too.huhu

shafiqah's myspace page used to have a line which sounds like this.."shut me wth some chocolates and thomas kemper" so we went down to cold storage and get those..but it never shuts her!LOL its a lovely moment to sit with the one you love and have a wonderful drinks together.. :)

Monday.6th April

My proposal for Digi communication finally approved by Mr Colin..it needs a detail storyboard thats all!yeay!

seems that shafiqah doesnt have anytg to do on that day..i pickd her up and we went to nearest jusco to spend some time together..its the worst place ever..with no cinemas..no nothg! thank god that i have such a creative mind..we went to some cheap karaoke place and kill 5 songs! haha u dnt wnna know what songs that theyre recommending..it took time for us to pick what song to sing..

1-Peterpan-Tak Bisakah
2-Irwansyah & Acha - My Heart
3-Faizal Tahir- what what cinta LOL
4-Flop Poppy - Suziela
5-Dewa 19 - Dewi

LOL LOL and LOL for that place.when we went out..it feels like walkig out from some prostitution academy or something.LOL

she then have sushi's before we got back home..and its wonderful to be with her in a middle of traffic jam watching the sun goes down..i love u manja.. :)

Tuesday.7th April

Woke up at 12am..skipped my AfterEffects and 3Dmax classes..received a msg from Catric saying that i skipped a test in the morning..so ive failed..ahh not again..but..hmmm...shafiqah is having her shooting in Limkokwing while his bf who have classes is still in bed..hahaha..whatever..have my shower and go down..another bad thing happen..

Goku my 10th kitten died..he went back from vet last 2 days..for some random virus shit..he seems happy yesterday..n today he's gone..tears running down my face to see him..this is the 2nd kitten died in my life..1st one happen about last 3 years..whatever it is Goku..every single time i spent with you is priceless..rest in peace Goku..send my regards to Kiki in heaven :)

3 Days in a Row!

2009-03-31T05:47:00.000-07:00

Its Tuesday OMG! So lemme tell u things tht happen around since Sunday!
Sundae is HYPE with a friend of mine wedding's!

Its started in the morning with a moarning of my dad..
He's mad cuz i nver change my engine oil for ages ago til its damn dried now!HAHA
So i pickd up my baby n "tumpang" with a friend of mine..

Its a pretty sunny day n the Nasi Minyak at their wedding is soooooo DELICIOUS!

So here are some photos for you guys!

Selamat Pengantin Baru to Megat and Zureen~!

Basically EVERYBODY!

Me and my lovely Shafiqah

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On Monday, i skippd my Adobe Flash class to accompany Shafiqah to her shooting location in Amcorp Mall. It was damn long that i shopped 3 cassetes, one magazine, 3 trips to toilet, 2 hours in cyber cafe, and 2 Tall Java Chips!

But anything for you right baby? :)
So i watched her in action with Datuk Yusof Haslam's son (dont know what his name) which is the director of the movie Evolusi KL Drift which did thrills me last year..
ok2 back to my girl,she's cute in her school uniform acting like a flirty girl trying to get her teacher attention or something..

But that's normal..i know she's good..but what's more interesting to me is how the crews working..oh my god they really need to sit back to school and learn some Pendidikan Sivik dan Moral..They shouted to each other,talk bad,and somehow unproffesional to me..But im no one to say anything..so just watch..and i heard some compliments from the director to Shafiqah..Im damn proud u know! :P

When i started to get bored,went upstairs and play some Need For Speed while loading some tutorials in youtube for tomorrow's exam..n she caught me for not studying! =.=" so she went back to the set and suddenly..she called..crying...

But the peak of the story is when her mommy's calling looking for her..the crews said that she's not on the set..blood rushes to my head worrying where the hell she think she is going alone! Pay the Internet Cafe and run looking for her..At last found her crying somewhere..Packs her bags up and just get the hell out from there..and i guess i did managed to cool her down with some hugs n kisses + keropok lekor on the way back home :)

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And as for today..the worst day of my life i guess!
I did study for my After Effects test but fuck just bcause of one unknown button..
i cudnt do nothing but watched the screen for two hours?What the hell?
Dont wanna talk about it..tomorrow will be a brighter day for me :)

Earth Day!

2009-03-28T09:50:00.001-07:00

Well i woke up at 6.30am today to follow my mom to a "Knowing Yourself by Your Birth Of Date" in Park Royal hotel today.it is not fair that i have to pay for myself cuz the intention is just to accompany my mom.LOL

Sorry for the really2 small pic. So this is the speaker Dr Azizan Osman. He's quite a good speaker to me. Very fluent and friendly. At the 1st 2-3hours, it was damn boring cuz he started at some motivational stuff which i hate so much. Added with games like u have to get a signature from people who have this and that(OMFG i hate that!)..And then he open up the method to calculate my birth date and knowing myself by the numbers.

My birthday is on 19-12-1989 and after calculating it,
the "chasis number" wud be 1-3-4.
and here's the intrepretation..

1-SELF
a natural born leader,hate to follow people,good at analysing people,independent,positive,aggresive,always want to win,sensitive,always have a high expectation towards something,very straight forward.

3-ACTIVE
Popular,charming,not quite firm,easy to make friends,sensual,fashionable,love to take control.

4-PLAN
Best at skills,hard to give up,hard to keep money,bad relationship,always think negative on others,proud,loyal,needs security,firm,afraid of taking risks.

i would say some of it is right and not right,
thats where i started to feel that this thing is attacking people randomly.
after listening to some feedbacks from other participants..
they came to a conclusion whre we have to attend the advanced course in Sunday..
and shockingly.about 70 people were fighting for the seats!
which costs about 5 times higher!huhu thats what i respect about this Dr Azizan!
he found such a big oppoturnity to make good money!
but what to do,im not 100% convinced to take the next step..
so i went back home with mom, feeling funny and clueless.haha

and at 8.30,we turn off every lights in the house to support the earth hour day although some people thinks that its a waste of time and stupid. I'm kinda ashamed and disapointed with us people here in Malaysia. We're so ego that it is hard to show some support to good things! Come on man, 60mins wont hurt u dumbass.so here are some feedbacks of us Malaysian towards Earth Hour.sigh =.="

Forum 1

Forum 2

Well.the best song to put u into good sleep tonight is..
The Lost Sea - Turn Out Every Lights
Enjoy :) and goodnite!